It has been a long long time since i last blog down here ! manz...life's been challenging esp at work ~ is never easy to please my sous chef at work ! becoz the standard is that damn high ! God.. i want to persevere through !!! thanks for the encouragement sent by joel ! Joe.. u are a great lad and the book was fantastic, humble pie ! i didnt know gordon ramsay walk out of kitchen twicein his career ! by the way.. i almost wlak out of kitchen once ! but by grace i pull it through !!! is really shit ! this 53 kitchen is the commando kitchen in singapore !!! :-) eveybody is leaving.. but i waill stay put and see how long i can last !!! PULL IT THROUGH boy!!!!

I really miss my dear close buddies ! we haven really meet up for drinks and chill.. as time pass by, i also learn to forgive and forget.. i want to restore back the old friendship that we once shared.. ? ppl like Sam gan.. that asshole , which many will agree... lol .. ur damn birthday is coming up..maybe i shld initiate the celebration with ur wonderful ex poly wrestling, loving brothers, jabronis !!!! ;-)

lennon is 26 .. but he acts like 17.. haha.. isnt that great ! i want to say i am young !!!! yea ~~ thank God for donald allowing me to stay put at ur place.. if not for him.. i may be slping at henderson wave or hotel 81 ~ lol
Lord, i want to see the Cg grow as one ! Really that serious!!! as i said i believe that we can be the most dynamic, powerful $CG!!! but as i say it .. prob i need to input something too... will i be able to bring back that ' special touch ' to the CG ? like what i did before ? well.. time tells ~ persevere Jiayan ! i be behind u ~
at this stage of life.. esp with work... it helps me to grow stronger mentally .. i felt stronger than before... but sadly.. i have that ' unbreakable pride ' growing in me.. i will never say cannot.. i will do it at all cost if i want ~ but i know it will dent something in the future.. i dunno whats that.. so... pls keep me in check, someone who loves and open enough to confront me ~

This is dedicated to June.. someone i dun really know personally.. but i did give her some ' shit' before through conversation in the past.. realise she got some illness.. june ! pls keep ur faith in God strong ! just like hezekiah who believes and pray to the lord for mercy ! and he is healed ! God will not ignore ur cry ! 2 kings 20 :2 Remember olord how i walk faithfully and with whole hearted devotion and have done what is good in your eyes, and hezekiah wept bitterly..... Lord repliedi have heard ur prayers and seen ur tears and i WILL HEAL YOU ! i will add 15 moe years to ur life !
i hope this encourage u ! i willpray for u and keep this healing gift in good use ! have faith pls and Lets see what the Lord will do in the coming days ! ;-)
actually i almost stand up in the service when PJ was asking who need healing ! so whats wrong with me ? i realise i am colour blind ~ lol ~ seriouse crap shit !!!!!! ass HOLE ! some colours i really cant see the diff..i got it wrong .. is a recent thingy la.. hmmmm...

Thank you for loving me .... :-)