What does it tell/inspire you in this photo ? For me, is a photo of hope and courage and strength .. i want to be like the tree that challenges its surrounding even though all is different from him.. i will do the defying odds and resume my fighter role..
thankfully , i have straighten my thoughts and i am remorse for what i have did if only i think clearly.. i'll accept the blame and consequences .. and will move on...

Down here in Malaysia , i am waiting for information from mum's friend.. and still thinking of Visa first or later.. i do really hope to leave ! and venture in a new place.. Its winter down there i heard ! gona be cold.. hmmm i think i will get some black leather Jacket.. or brown colour looks nice and cool.. wah.. Out of a sudden, i am scared travelling alone to settle down there.. i have the 'what if ' effects in my head.. and i also have the ' if only ' effects.. well.. Just give it a try man ! i am a born fighter ! Even i lose, at least i tried.. Yea !!
Since i am so free now.. let me thank some good and wonderful friends in my life at this time that i think of and impact me.. Man.. it gona be a Long List !!! But restricted to Top 10 only

First position : Jasmine Poon

Well, i guess i am a hard mentee and hard fellow to handle.. but she still shared her life and learnings to me often ! i did'nt do well my part as a mentee... so dont think its your fault.. one particular incident i always remember is the time where we were at your house the roti prata shop.. HAHA.. it was a night of ' weeping ' but also a time of strenghtening.. and also you and your flower short and Raja Inn .... Erh.. why not u treat me for another Raja inn before i leave UK ?

Second Position : Yuhan aka Faith

If only.. the one thing i could have done better in dealing with you... i would have stay and help you in the problems before you backslide... but i know God is in the heart of yours ! one day , you will slide back.. Erh.. thanks for you support when i am really.. you know la ! i thank God for a Good good friend and once armour bearer to me... really sense the help and ' Protection ' alot of times.. one incident that i remember clearly was a time..where we had DMM or Core-team meet.. and i was super super angry with you guys being LATE.. and all can see me not very happy and during free and easy time.. i was sitting at the red sofa.. and you monkey ( know me too well ) and start to cheer me up.. though i look stern still.. but u keep 'provoking' me till we broke out in laughter ! HAHAHAHA.. Ok.. You treat me a meal before i leave UK ? maybe.. buffet ? hahaha...

Thirdly : Samuel ( shatec friend )

Haha.. Samuel , you surprise right.. you noop think i always church friend church friend ... than forget you.. HAha.. no hor ! you than forget me ! with your latest catch ! jialat.. i forgot her name.. but thanks for the advice on the trip and also i think we really compliment each other in our characters .. i miss those times ' Pooling ' and conversation before or after.. But you know what.. i think you will have to call me chef after you come out from NS.. i got 2 years advantage ! Haha.. Treasure your girlfriend.. and pls la.. learn the Singapore dating places..and dont always call me for help in the venues... -___- '' lol .. Erh where is the promise treat to Royal plaza makan ??? You owe me one hor !!

Fourth : Barnabas ( one stroke )

Haha.. ' dio suan ' if you can remember clearly.. i don't call you or make fun of your name.. Haha fist time.. so not convicted of any charges.. You have been a good friend, sheep and support to me many times.. your humilty is something i want to get and snatch and run away with it.. but i think yours is really build from stretch to where it stand firmly now ! Be decisive at times as well ! the deepest impression got to be.. when you just converted.. and the pretty stern and objective you keep questioning and questioning about Christianity.. that makes me think so much that i say.. God will answer your question along the way as you walk... Haha.. i think you pretty scared.. as i dont look friendly to you .. haha.. Hmm.. i owe you a treat ... Sianz !...

Fifth : Jiayan aka Jasmine

Told ya.. i ain't gona be a good and obedient cg member.. HAHA.. i think the latest incident has certainly.. build us strong.. but is my fault afterall.. that period of time, i am still wondering and affected.. that it just cant be so coincidence.. but now, the clear blue sky has reign once again in our lives.. though for short period of time.. i could see genuine love that u have for the people.. hmm..when was the last time i see this caring image.. to be honest.. No.. No in the extend..compare with leaders i know and see before.. i don't sense that much in them..but in you i really felt that.. Thumbs up ! You could have easily ignore and scolded and thrash me.. anyway.. sorry..................................................... ( act cute voice ) Haha.. promise la.. will contact with you and the rest.. Particular incident that i remember.... the dinner at Ang mo kio remember ? got to know more about you and ur laughter is certainly commendable and contagious.. H hahahah...AHahahhaha..MmmmAHahah... ( think of honda bike sound ) Oh ya.. treat me a meal at fastfood ok ? set and deal close ! Haha

Sixth : Colin Seah

Colin seah... wah cow.. i almost strangle you about the Hq funds lo !! but is ok la.. haha.. Our friendship not base on that issue though i am really.. haha.. i think time spent together is lesser and lesser due to our commitment level.. Continue your job to lead them and i am really impress with your level of focus in doing the things that is needed to be done ! :-) i have forgotten why we have got that close in the first place.. maybe u can write in ur blog and tell me.. lol.. i will find some time to catch up on you if i m in singapore ! You treat ok ? i want.. Buffet !!! Ok set ! Johnathan and David till death..

Seventh : Kehan Tan

Muhahaha.. Kehan ! paiseh.. now u have to work alone at superdog.. haha.. this friend of mine is totally crappy .. all the time ! Thanks my buddy ! i think you help me alot alot.. remember the sms you helped me at Roomful of blues.. and also.. moving of HQ ( You really help me alot that time )... you are loyal and you have no complaint at all even though at times.. your ideas being ridicule or suggestion condemn or the flocks are against you.. haha.. i always feel supported in terms of security .. knowing somebody will back me up and thats you ! :-) lets win the second season hope premier league with the new team formed ! and you no need to treat me meal.. as we still have free meal with Evolution FC ! so we can plan when to settle that !! Hahaha... keep contact again..didnt see u online at all ! :-(

Eighth : Jeanette Ong ( I know is Tan )

Jean Tan.. aka Pui yee.. hmmmm.. ok .. thanks for the time and advise you given to me during that period of walking round Mount Senai.. you always never failed to be concerned about my life.. the past is past.. lets not dwell in it.. Continue your dreams you have... and hear good news from you ! :- )

ninth : Kok How

kok how.. is you agian in the top 10 list.. Happy ? thanks for taking care of my dog.. How.. Fat like pig le ma.. after the 5 star feeding to her by your parents .... haha You never failed to get out of my head.. i think i am in love with you.. Ha as in.. you grow alot.. and i am so happy for ya for who you are now.. the book you gave me.. the things you planned for me... haha.. is truly amazing.. ( Malaysia truly Asia... ) i think your life can impact alot of people le ! really.. so do that job faithfully what God has helped you and trained you for who you are now ! : -) u also working hor.. erh u want to treat me ? treat me ... a simple meal ? Ok..set !

Tenth : Randall

Randall must be hapy that her name is on the blog.. yea ! Thanks for the support and i was surprised..how u know i am not feeling good last night.. i dont remember telling u or anything.. but you jsut say you know me well ! Ok.. hmm.. Going dubai ! thats a dream come true yea.. serve God and work at the same time ! is also a dream where u stated in the mission stuff i remembered when we were in HQ when i challenged your to put the country and year.. you will be stronger and stronger when you do more for God ! and is really a privillage to do His job.. Jia you and u also owe me a treat ! Hahahaha...

So in total.. not bad.. writting good stuff about your friends and you get something like 8 FREE meals !! YEAP..


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